1am rambles are filled with improper english

I'm an idiot. I know this. I'm not sure how many more times I'll continue to develop some sort of feelings and have them shoved back into my face. I hate this, and i hate how easily I fall for people. It's not like it happens often, but when it does i Really start to fall and i begin to hate myself for whatever reason. I'm not good enough to care about longer than a month tops. I mean sure, I've definitely lead guys on in my past, and still continue to, today. But, when I actually care about someone, my feelings get throwback into my face. I won't worry about it anymore.